This time of year brings up a bevy of emotions for everyone, good and bad. Women who have lost a child to abortion feel abandoned and dismal. We are pariah, we are the most inhuman, according to the world. Why are we here? Is there a reason for all of this? Does it have to hurt this bad? WHY ME?? No one is on this Earth by accident. We are not an abysmal science experiment. We are not a by-product of an accidental explosion. Humans have not evolved from soulless single-cell bits and pieces that randomly came together over billions of years:
‘I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.’ Psalm 139:14
God made us perfectly and with purpose. We were not set up to fail; we were created to know a loving God. That may be the only instinct that humans have. There is not one thing that will keep you from the Kingdom of God, except unbelief. Everyone that has or will be born has a specific task that God has chosen. We have been allowed to sin and sin and sin so that one day we would turn and seek God.
‘And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.’ Romans 8:28
We have been put in the position to jeopardize and destroy what is His first – our unborn child. Because of circumstances that seem to be out of our control we destroy what is His. We are under a misunderstanding that God makes humans for amusement, not with a soul and purpose. Through our own difficult decisions and circumstances, we are where we are in our lives right now. We made those choices, He allowed them.
BUT: I was foreknown by Him, not by my parents or my family. Aborted children were known by God first: ‘For whom He foreknew, He also predestined to be conformed to the image of His Son, that He might be the firstborn among many brethren.’ Romans 8:29
Just as God has allowed us to sin and destroy, we humans allow others to dictate our lives with godlessness and void. Post Abortive women allowed their child to be destroyed by human hands. Just as the sun will come up every morning, so is the evidence that a child died at my request.
‘Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; Before you were born I sanctified you; I ordained you a prophet to the nations.’ Jeremiah 1:5
CHOICE destroyed what was God’s first…’NOW faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen’. Praise God for His forgiveness and taking care of my child until I can see him again.