Minutes become hours, hours become days, days become months, months become years. My abortion, even after 33 years, will never leave my thoughts. My journey with this abominable decision has been up and down, mostly down until I came to know Jesus Christ as Lord. Until that day in December of 2001 I was under the convictions of my own mind, inspired by the pit of Hell. Satan demanded my life; Jesus demanded only my belief in His finished Work at the Cross. I found that to be much more palatable than an eternity of a living Hell.
‘For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for LIFE; Weeping may endure for a night, But joy comes in the morning.’ Psalm 30:5, NKJV
But can my sin be forgiven? Not only has my sin(s) been forgiven but they have been forgotten! My sin will never be held against me ever again! Jesus died for ALL of my sins, not just the wimpy ones.
I have days where I honestly wonder if I will ever get over my own sin. I sometimes can’t seem to put one foot in front of the other and hate getting up in the morning. Abortion always has at least two victims. My child is in Glory, thank God – but I’m still here baring the offense. But God is good!! His promises are sure.
‘For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.’ Jeremiah 29:11, NKJV
I am the Woman at the Well, going about my daily grind thinking about a life I can’t get out of the way of. It seems like a path that is set out for me, it’ll be all that I know. But Jesus is at the Well waiting for me…ME!! I am a sinful woman that has only known an idolatrous religion and lived life like it didn’t matter. But Jesus is at the Well waiting for ME!! Look at me…I’m so unworthy. But Jesus is at the Well waiting for ME!! And I will exalt Him to my peers and neighbors for He is good and He forgives ME!!!
I am restored because I know Jesus – but I need a shot in the arm now and then, I am human and I do grieve and hurt for what I did in my old life. I go to my Bible and read the Promises that God has given me because I believe in Him and not a world that still seeks to destroy me.
I thank God for his Mercy and His Son, Jesus Christ – my Lord.
‘Praise the LORD! Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever.’ Psalm 106:1, NKJV